self worth

Anywhere but Here

It’s one of those memories that’s so imbedded in my mind’s eye that I remember what I was wearing. My outfit, of course, meticulously planned and executed, was a critical piece of the mosaic of that day.

And so was my makeup. At fifteen years old, the fact that I had recently been granted permission to wear mascara and clear lip gloss was more than a rite of passage. It was a desperately craved form of expression, yes, but moreover, it felt like a gateway to the future me.

Making Music

For a significant chapter of my life, running was my outlet of choice. Pre-dawn, feet making music against the pavement, I would settle into the monotony of a rhythm that swallowed me whole.

I felt both everything and nothing while I was running. Mind lost in thought, it was assumed my body would defy the odds. The more extreme the conditions, the better test of my merit.   

Darkness. Coldness. Exhaustion. These were the running partners that challenged my soul.

When I Grow Up

The truth is there’s a very fine line between embracing yourself as a work in progress and never feeling like you’ve arrived. If the goalpost of “enough” is an ever-moving target, Gang, we’re never going to get there.

And that then begs the question, what’s the damn point?